Take · these · broken · wings · and · learn · to · fly

For whoever still reads this...
I am leaving for Ghana (west africa for idiots who dont know) on March 4th, for the semester.

SO, if you wanna hang out let me know because im going to be gooooooooone for a long time.

Yippee.

I neglect this for myspace....

No one reads this shit anyway.

I have completely lost my grip on my life right now. Uno's owns my soul, and works me 50-70 hours a week.
I hate where I live here.
I feel completely empty.

Boys toy with my emotions too damn much.

I swear I am bi-polar, or multiple personality, some crazy insane in the head shit.

Well the past week I have been fabulous. I got a new kitten, his name is maximus, and he is adorable and the love of my life, i am a crazy cat obsessed nerd.
Last night I worked, found out ron was ok, and got wasted with kel, josh and my roomy on boxed wine, or rather sangria. Woke up still plastered and went to work, no one told me my pants were inside out, i didnt even know til i got home. Took a nap, went to second job, got off 2 hours early... SCORE! Went with josh to visit kel and eat, then went on a trek on the awful roads to find a snow tube, it took forever and i finally paid 18 dollars for a double sweater, because thats all they had.

But where am i now? Not out with everyone sledding on the 20 dollar piece of blow up poop i bought.

I got really upset about something little, and couldnt stop the snowball effect of my emotions and ended up just crying.

I hate this.

Stuff has just been bothering me, the more i open up and am myself, the more people seem to look down on me. everything that used to be what people loved about me, not gets comments like "no seriously, how could anyone actually date you" and how i dont dress right or just, for such a liberal city i seem to meet all the pricks.

Kelly lets me down... a lot.

I finally thought i knew what i wanted.

I feel so lost again.

maybe im just overtired.


max and i are going to cuddle.

Happiness.

I feel somewhat attratcive.
I am findind happiness and beauty in everything.

Hooray for making good amazing friends
Hooray for having a lovely beef
Hooray for loving this city
Hooray for not hating my jobs
Hooray for not having hangovers
Hooray for life, hooray for me, hooray for you

HIGH FIVES ALL AROUND.

Come visit me.

Night number 2, went well.

I love Ron Burgundy

I had a good time, though we had to play extreme catch up.

Kelly barfed all over everything everywhere including me.

Luke saved the day.

I slept happy.

Work made me want to beat my face in with a hammer, and now i get a letter from bastard brandon, lets just make me feel worse and worse.

please god, if you have a soul, you'll let me watch my girly movie tonight with boy. I will be happy then, make him say YES.